Jumat, 31 Desember 2010

my necessity

i need someone,, heumphh,,

someone who hold my hands,

haahh,, pengen punya suami ahh lulus dari Polban ,,

wkwkkwk,,


hoole hole hole,, malem ini taun baruan ma capa yaaa??

hhaha,, curiga "terdiam" di kosan,, ckckkckck ,, :(

Rabu, 22 Desember 2010

my first speech ,, ohoho,, klas 2 SMP,,

Assalamualaikum Wr.Wb

     Our teachers, all the staff and the commitees in SLTPN 17 Bandung who i respects. And also the colleagues and the student SLTPN 17 Bandung who i loves.
     The first and the main. of course let's thanks to God, because today we have been given long age to meet each other in this forum.

     Ladies and gentlemen,

In this opportunity, i will talk about Bandung's condition now. We have been living ini Bandung and i'm sure Bandung's condition formerly and now i different. BANDUNG! BANDUNG! Bandung is popular city in Indonesia. Bandung is capital of West Java Province. With the slogan: clean, green, and full of flowers. Sothat it is popular called PARIS VAN JAVA. Bandung which is surrounded by mountainous makes Bandung's weather is cool and fresh.

   Listen!
Banudng has jungles to additional income both for government and for people around jungles. Bandung has rice fields to help farmer plant rice as their stuffle diet. Bandung has clear river to life. Bandung has museums to collect and preserve things come from the past for their next generation. Bandung has zoo to protects many kinds of rare animals. Bandung has mode. Bandung has traditional activities. Bandung has traditional language. And Bandugn has all other treasure. But that is formerly. Possibly, alll can destroy.

   Ladies and gentlemen,

Have you known about Bandung's condition now? Bandung become dirty, pollution, bad weather city, dry city, or Bandung isn't PARIS VAN JAVA anymore. Formerly, the stufents from Malaysia come from their city to studying in Bandung. But now, the students from Bandung go to school in Malaysia.
Look! There are children in the main roads playing their musical instrument and sing a song who gets moneys from peoples who take a pity on their condition or maybe enjoy their music. They are children. They must go to school. How about How about their future? How about Bandung's future? How about Bandung's future? How about our next generation? Oh my God, Pertiwi is crying for Bandung.

    Why?
   
    Why?

Has Bandung been dead forever or maybe Bandung is sleeping now. If Bandung has been dead forever, let's make Bandung to be alive again. If Bandung has been sleeping, let's make Bandung to be get up again. Let's make Bandung to be the first and the best of the best.
Bandung is safe, prosperious, peaceful, cool, fragrant, clean, green, and full of flowers. Now let's think it in this moment. Do you like Bandung's former better than Bandung's condition now and BUILD IT UP in order to return to Bandung is former with in discipline, clean, and effort.
 
Ladies and gentlemen,

I think that's all for this moment, let's take the best and throw away the bad things in this forum, thank you for your attention, and i want to say sorry for my shortage. Let's "GET UP, GET UP, BANDUNG!"

Wassalamualaikum wr wb

curcol (curhat colongan) ah: :D ,, this script was made by my classmate, she is a nice friend, thank you Nurlia 
and i translate it to english,, baaaaddd  english,, ancur gitu eta bahasa (hha,, more bad than now), better laaah if i compare with another student. weehwww,,
this speech leaves many bad memory,
i don't like my junior high school english teacher. >.<
ahhhh,, it's so hard to speek in english. grammmaaaaarrrr,,, arrrggghhh,,

sesudah ngetranslate naskah dari nuy, trus aku dan teman-teman (hhe,, baku mode on! :D) pergi ke ibu bahasa inggris (MAAF BU! SAYA LUPA NAMA IBU, EMANG GA INGET SDIKITPUN) , trus minta bantuin ngeliat naskah yang udah disusun, "bu apa struktur katanya udah pada bener? bantuin kita donk bu, kita bingung,, esti mu ikutan speech contest minggu depan itu" gitu lah kira-kira mungkin omongannya, lupa,, hha, uda 6 tahun yang lalu,, (busssett,, tua bener gue >0<')


kemudian, si ibu guru, membaca naskah, trus dia nyaranin buat ngerubah naskah yang uda disusun,, ibu: "nanti kamu mau pidato ini? masa bandung bagus? ubah aja, bandung itu (bla,,,blaa,,,blaa), ganti sok sekarang,  murid-murid saya nak 2I  sama kelas lain itu ga ngebagus-bagusin kota bandung, gada yang kayak gini, kenapa 2J beda, udah samain aja. jadinya bllllllaaaa...blaaaa........................bla..... (BUSEEET BUU UDA SUSAH-SUSAH JUGA) ,
trus kita bilang: ga bisa buu, temen kita bu yang bikin, amanah bu, kasian kalo dirubah, berarti ntar bukan jadi yang bener-bener buatan dia
(waktu itu kebetulan nurlia ga ada, untunglah, lagian aku dan teman-teman ngerasa lebih klop sama naskah yang nurlia bikin,, emang bener lah , yang namanya pidato tuu, masa ngejelek-jelekin mulu, harus ngebagusin juga donk, biar ada motivasinya, lagian juga emang kenyataan kita bangga kok jadi orang bandung, walopun waktu aku smp itu lagi gempar-gemparnya sama slogan bandung kota sampah :( hiks)


ibu: "loh, kok gitu?"
kita: "ia bu,, minta tolong dikoreksi aja bu,, bahasa inggrisnya, bener ato ngga"


dan ibu yang baik hati namun jutek itupun membantu kami, makasi buuu,, (nampak kan struktur bahasa inggrisnya masih banyak yang salah di naskah diatas, padahal udah dikoreksi sama guru inggris :X)


dan hari demi hari c calon peserta speech contest pun akhirnya berlatih.. uweeeee,,, teriak-teriak depan radio, direkam, didengerin sendirii,, slama berhari-hari ia berlatih,,
AKHIRNYA!!!!!!!!!!!!
H-1 ,, rapat pengumuman peserta speech contest,
dan namaku pun akhirnya tidak tercantum :(,, hgfjnbsjfgbleajgfbljnabdfnanb fcabfbjdfg hjfgejfnb fhgjehg


ibuu yang manis dan baik hati dan jutek dan aneh, yang kutemui minggu lalu, ternyata tidak mencantumkan namaku sebagai peserta speech contest. padahal, kan saya sudah berkonsultasii sama ibu,,,, astagfirullah,,, masa ga inget ada yang konsultasi anak 2J, ngek!


akhirnya, kita kan jadi mikir yang buruk-buruk ttg ibu:
omonganA:"mungkin c ibu takut kalo anak didiknya kalah, dia kan wali 2I tuh, malu mungkin kalo 2I kalah, padahal wali kelasnya guru bahasa inggris,"
omongan B:"kok gitu c, padahal kan ibu tau banget kalo kita ke si ibu, masa anak 2J jadi gada perwakilannya, padahal kelas-kelas yang lain udah didaftarin"
omonganC:"udah ti, takut kalah meren, gara-gara naskahnya bagus, udah sana daftar ulang ajah!"
omonganD:"ia daftar ulang ajah"


daaannn,, mereka pun mendesakku,, hha, esti maluuu,, bangett, udah PEDE bakal diapnggil, ternyata nama esti ga dipanggil-panggil karena memang ga terncantum, mu daftar ulang, tapi malu ah, ntar kayak anak yang gadiaku.. :(,,
walo temen-temen udah ngedesek buat ikutan, tapi aku tetep gamau daftar ulang,, udah sedih duluan,, hha,,(kejelekan aku tuhhh!!!)
akhirnya aku minta maaf ke nurlia, karena dia udah bikin naskah tapi kan akhirnya ga kepake, maaf ya nuy,
(hha, sekarang malah nyesel, kenaappppa dulu ga daftar ulang ajah, jadi kan esti bisa buktiin kalo esti bisa!!!! :D)


NOte:
Penyesalan datangnya memang terakhir. Kalo didepan, bukan penyesalan namanya.
walopun ibu seorang wali kelas, tapi tugas utamanya adalah ngajar di kelas-kelas yang lain juga. anda bertanggung jawab bukan hanya satu kelas bu, melainkan semua kelas yang anda ajari mata pelajaran anda.
jangan pilih kasih ya buuu,, :D.
jangan nge anak tiriin kelas lain ya bu, walopun kelas itu terkenal bandel, harusnya kan dibina, jangan dibiarin makin terpuruk dari peredaran acara sekolah.
ingatan seorang murid terhadap seorang guru seringkali lebih besar dibanding ingatan seorang guru terhadap seorang murid.
guru adalah panutan. baik kebaikan maupun kesalahan guru yang berkesan, selalu terngiang-ngiang di memori anak didiknya.
terima kasih ya buu, atas ajarannya,, saya bisa jadi seperti ini karena ibu :D

Sabtu, 18 Desember 2010

I FEEL ........

yesterday, i should have joined mapan (Malam Panjang= Long Night?!?), it's just like some of ospek for our junior undergraduated student.
when i was ready to go to the Kiara Payung (it's in Jatinagnor, it's the place where we'll take the camp), my mother suddenly said to me, that she didn't allow me to join mapan. because, the weather would be so cold.

Actually, ya! it was rain when my mother said she didn't allow me  to join mapan, and it will be more cold in the night. Moreover, i dont't know why, but Bandung city (my city where i live) has become so cold this month than usual. Furthermore, my endurance was week yesterday (and now too).

In one second, i feel happy that i don't have to join mapan, of course my body would't be pale, sick, chill, tired, or anything else. But, in the other side, i felt there is something wrong, is should have being there, with my friends, and my juniors. i should have teached them how to being a better and dicipline student.

But may be it's imposible. Since one day before yesterday, my mother said to me that my father didn't allow me to go to Kiara Payung. And i know, whatever the reasons, my father won't allow me to Kiara Payung in this season. Sometimes, if i force my mother, my mother will let me do what i want, and persuade my father to let me do what i want. But yesterday in the afternoon, my mother still didn't change her opinion.
So, i let her called my team leader and said that i can't go to KiaraPayung. And my team leader said: "Yes , mam. That's allright."
me: -_- (in my mind: ya sure! he won't neglect it. because if i being him, i won't neglect the parent of my friends.)

Selasa, 17 Agustus 2010

I love my mom


i'm sorry mom,, i don't knowthat u love me so much,,
that u don't want to see my sadness,
i'm sorry mom,, i love u so much,,
SORRY
SORRY
SORRY
SORRY

i am so sorry, i love u mom,, please forgive me,,
i thought u don't love me, but infact it's wrong. u love me so much,,
i am sorry mom, i won't hurt u anymore,,
i am soory, please don't cry mom,
i don't want to see your tears for me or for anyone anymore,,
i am so sorry,,

i won't doubt your love for me anymore,,
i will make u proud of me,, :D . .
I LOVE U MOM,,

Senin, 09 Agustus 2010

I feel bad

bad?! no!

my Grade Point Average is down

Astagfirullahaladzim,,
I feel so bad today,,
In the morning, i came to my campuss to welcome my junior, new student in my campuss. WELLCOME ABROAD!! HAHAHA .
Not Only that, I came to my campuss to have some registration at my campuss.  And ,,,, to see how about my IPK (Indeks Prestasi Kumulatif), what's it in english language??! heu .

I wanna cry . i want to cry . i am supposed to cry. why, my Grade Point Average is down ..
At first semester, i got 3.4
At Second Semester , i got 3.8
At Third Semester , i got 3.6
At Fourth Semester, i got 3.5
In the fact, it's not what i am supposed to get. i thought that i will get approximitly 3.8 at fourth semester.
DAMN . !!
When i was still a junior, my campuss was introducing some of the most outstanding student. They come from different major. Honestly, i got so enthusiasme . i told to my self : I HAVE TO BE LIKE THEM . I HAVE TO BE A CLEVER GIRL . I WANT TO BE LIKE THEM, I WANT SOMEONE CALL ME TO STAGE AND GIVE ME A SCHOLARSHIP, AND EVERYBODY IN THAT BUILDING GIVE APPLAUSE TO ME, AND THEY (THE JUNIOR) WILL SAY TO THEIR SELF (I WANT TO BE LIKE FIESTY) .

I have been getting scholarship.It's the second. But, the scholarship that i get now, isn't the scholarship from the intern campuss, it's from another.

I think, i won't get that scholarship in my whole life . Because, my classmate has got that scholarship . it's only one who can get that scholarship . i am getting so frustated right now.  My fault is my Grade Point Average isn't up simultaneously.  It's up and down . Eventhough my GPA is higher than my classmate, but her GPA is adding simultaneously.

I am annoyed. No! i'm not annoyed. When i was have some test, in the first semester,  I CHEATED.  I opened a book, looked at a paper (that i had prepared at the night before), and asked my friends. After that, I realized that it was wrong, and It will not last long. Once i cheated, i tend to do it and do it again. it was so hard to memorize the lessons. Because, in my mind, if i can cheating, so why i have to memorize the lessons. I had to make the end. I couldn't do that anymore. In the second semester, i began to stop cheating. i wasn't open book or a paper, desk, handphone, or anything, but i still asked my friend when i got some difficulties. In the third semester, I'M FREE . I DIDN'T CHEATING. I didn't ask my friend. But, i still answered their question when they asked me during the exam. So do i in fourth semester, and hope i will always keep it all of my life. Eventhough i know that almost all of my classmates still do cheating but i don't care. That's only one,  one of my best friend, Septy, she didn't cheating, may be just ask her friends when she got some difficult. But, she taught me that open a book/desk/paper/handphone/your leg during the exam, it will make you lazy to memorize the lesson for tomorrow exam. It will become a habit. Eventhough i know that my GPA isn't as high as my friends which cheating when the exam, but i believe i've done the best. If i cheating, my happiness is different, it's less than when i get higher GPA with my own ability. So, i won't cheating. Because i know, the number one isn't GPA. The number one is your happiness, your feeling when you get the result as same as what you hope with your own work. The measure of yourself.

Ya Allah, please help me up . Please,, i feel i'm so far from you . i have forgotten Allah . Eventhough i pray to Allah everyday, but my faith is less. i'm sorry Allah . i have got so much trouble in this semester . The worst, i have ever wanted to suicide. It must be because i was being an arrogant person. 


MY PROMISE :

* I HAVE TO ALWAYS INCREASE MY GPA FROM NOW UNTIL I GRADUATE
* I HAVE TO BE A BETTER PERSON!!
* I HAVE TO BE MORE DILIGENT !
* DON'T BE FOOLISH!
* DON'T BE SENSITIVE PERSON!
* BE A NICE GIRL BEIB,, I LOVE U ! ALL TIME ,,

well, next week, on Tuesday, i want to do some test . TOEFL TEST!! . i hope i can prepare my self with all of my ability . JUST DO IT WITH ALL MY BEST . DO THE BEST !!
I'M SURE I CAN DO IT, I HOPE MY SCORE IS MORE THAN 500 . AMIIIINNNN ....

CHAYOOOOO!!!

YA ALLAH, PLEASE HELP ME TO PREPARE MY SELF AND DO MY BEST IN ONE WEEK . AMIN,,
I LOVE U, ALLAH..
ESTI SAYAANG BANGET SAMA ALLAH  .. 
I WANT TO GET CLOSER TO ALLAH ,, ,, HELP ME,,